Tuesday, June 25, 2013

FEAR !!!

Throbbing in her chest

Her Chest breaths of heavy sighs

Sighs in darkness she is running away

Away from the hand

The hand that tries to strangle her

Her legs strangle with the dress

The dress that now makes her topple

Topples her on the rugged paths

Paths ahead lead no more

No more can she see

See only darkness swallow

Swallow herself, throbbing in her chest

Her chest breaths of heavy sighs

Sighs of relief, she wakes from a nightmare

From a nightmare into light

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Naina

Naina, had a very hectic day at work, like everyone getting back home was the best part of her day as well, she had her best friend as her roommate, all the worries and tensions vaporized into thin air when they had their relaxing evening tea. But, her roommate has gone to her home town to meet her parents. So, Naina was in no mood to make tea by herself for herself, else she decided to take an evening stroll in the nearby park and to have tea at the tapri (tea stall) there. She changed into her favorite blue cotton pants and loose t-shirt, wore her comforting flip flops and was out of home in just 5 minutes, on her way walking to the park she was surrounded by the busy traffic, the annoying horn of the cars and the nostalgic smell coming from the street vendors, so she started to stride fast.
As she reached ,the entrance of the park read “ Welcome To Sarojini Park “ she never liked the name Sarojini for the park , she felt as if she was about to enter a museum , no offense to whatever great Sarojini did to have a park named after her , she always thought the park could have some pleasant name like , Nisarg or Wonder  Woods or anything pleasant sounding at least . But it was a well-kept and beautiful park.
The entrance of the park was curved with the blossoming marigold on both hands, which lead way to the vast lush green carpet ahead of it, she could not feel the softness of the grass with her flip flops on. She took her tea from the tapri and was headed to their patent spot, it was a solitary bench from where you could get the best view of the park. There was a beautiful fountain in the middle, adoring it in encircle were wide rings of different flowers, red poppies, white lilies, yellow daffodil. Around flowers was a wide track to walk, jog or to skate. You could see all sorts of people there, having a leisure time with their friends, family and loved ones. Children running around, youngsters playing, families enjoying and couples having a cozy walk and talk.  
Sitting there sipping her tea, she could feel surrounded by all forms of liveliness of life in store, she breathed immense peace, a word she liked a lot, in peace with herself. And wondering how long way she has moved along. Even though she was sitting alone, she could not have been happier, yeah but she did miss her roommate’s glorious talk. Naina herself being a very reserved of person was astonished how some people can talk incessantly without getting tired. As she was running her eyes to see the world around her, they stopped on couple on the other side, as if she knew them and their story. She could only see the side face of the girl and tell that she was pretty, wearing denim jeans and white floral cute top, she had long wavy hair, and had a slim figure.  Sitting there Naina could make out that she had glittering bright eyes filled with love for the guy, she could only see the glimpses of the guy, but he seemed to be very good looking, she could tell that this couple was so in love, the tenderness in way the guy held her hands, the affection with which he was looking into her eyes and talking. Naina, felt a bit jealous, but she was in peace she had her bitter share of experience in love, it was enough for her. But for now she was satisfied in her own small world of friends and family.
On the other side, Priya is sitting close to Amit, trying to be in composure and to shed no tears, her long locks carelessly disturbed her , she tucked them back behind her ears, this was the same place where they always spent their weekends , it was the same her , and the same him. But everything was going change after this day for better. She told Amit, she could no longer take it anymore, it was not like that she had found someone else. She had so much respect and love for Amit. But it was hard on her part to explain that she did not feel the way she had expected or in the same way as he felt. Or she was sad that she was not able to reciprocate the love which she got. This feeling was strangling her from inside. Amit was the best of guys and best of friends, but she just did not feel for him that way, just the thought was making it difficult to breathe for her.
Amit was still holding her hands, calmly hearing but realizing how her sweetheart was tormenting his heart with these words , it was difficult for him to understand that Priya did not love him , he was trying to still find that glitter of love in Priya’s eyes, but eyes her eyes were looking down . She had respect but not love for him.  He then understood and told Priya that he could not be in contact with her anymore, it would be too damn hard for him, to see her, talk to her but not love her or care for her. Because he knew no one could ever love and respect her as the way he did. And he could not live this way. He kissed her hand. This was has to be their last goodbye.

Naina saw the guy kiss the girl’s hand, they stood up and walked away, Naina was happy to see them in love, in peace she had finished her tea and stood to leave too.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Wish


A wink and try
An irritation in eye
Blurred some  visions
Maneuvered movements
But caught by hands
With a puff of air
A restless whisper
A silent wish
 
P.S I was an eyelash

Who Are You ??

In restlessness
To prove yourself
In hesitation
To go beyond limits
In fear
To never let down
In consciousness
To everything you do
In challenge
Where you are in faceoff
With yourself
In close eyes
With every breath
You draw inspiration
You draw strength
You draw courage
From a proud woman

Archives

Closed my eyes to the mirror
Was afraid to see things clearer
The pain received from someone dearer


All this time which I thought I left behind
I promised myself not to remind
But here again I find
Feelings disturbing my mind

How hard it was to bring emotions on track
Tired I don’t want to look back

For me  time never tries to heal
I have tried with all my zeal
So I stand tall and make a deal

Let the memories remain crystal clear
Was a bad chapter nothings to fear
Muster faith and belief to bear
For the new me I cheer



 
 
 
 

Complicated


Shalini was sitting alone, trying to comprehend the reason why had she landed herself in such a situation with her best of friends. It was her best friend with whom she had shared all her secrets, reveled her lies , accepted her mistakes, shared her laughter and felt relieved from pain .Shalini’s  life was an open book to her  friend .It had been days she had talked to her , in the past her day was incomplete if she did not hear her voice. How could she treat her best friend like this, she wasn’t herself. She was going through some hard time that was for sure , the first person she used to  talk when she found herself in such situations was her best friend , but how come it has been days and she has not called , how could she let go of this , how could she not call and allow things get more worse. Things were never so much complicated with her best friend, whom she had nothing to be embarrassed of, she meant the life to her. There was not a day when she missed her, how eager she was to hear how her friend called her name. it was killing her from  inside , she thought she needed some time for herself to figure out how to deal with the problem herself , she wanted to be left alone to deal with it . And in this struggle with herself she was losing her best friend .The hesitation to talk was taking her more far away from her, it was breaking her , things were becoming more and more hazy to handle .  She did not know how to handle the situation because the friend she usually talk to in such situations, she was not able to talk to these days.
While she was in deep thoughts dealing with this, her phone rang, it was her best friend. She was drowning in guilt, how she has treated her, when she knew that her silence must be hurting her friend so much. Did she had the courage to pick her call and talk to her after behaving with her so badly , was she so selfish to even consider how her friend must to feeling about this. What was she trying to do, escape from her friend or herself? She was scared of herself. And again she did not answer her call. And it was all clear to her, she had crossed all limits now trying to avoid her friend, how could she expect her friend to call again yet even answer her own call; after treating her so badly. To her surprise the phone rang again, it was her friend, it was her last chance to correct her mistakes, it was now or never, she has to face this, and she now answered. Her friend just asked her how she was, she just said I am sorry to which her friend replied its Ok. That day she cried her heart out. And things were back to normal. Because they were best of FRIENDS 

Swing Baby

Come swing along
Rock your step with me
Be my pretty angel
And I’ll be your halo
 
Swirl around
Have fun with me
Come swing along
Rock your step with me
 
Forget your worries
Give me your charming smile
Oh baby come swing along
Rock your step with me
 
Sway in my arms
Let yourself free
Oh baby Come swing along
Rock your step with me


P.S : I wrote this in one of my class , and also composed a tune for it on my way back to home :P
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